In writing in a past blog on "Where God Leads Me, I Will Follow", I did not know that He would soon put me to the test of those words. Yes, that does sound holy and good, very devoted to the Lord, doesn't it?
I voiced the words, "I don't know what I'm going to be doing when I get to Georgia. All I know is that God told me that the next level of my life could not be fulfilled in Decatur, IL." So with that in my spirt I obediently and willingly stepped out on faith.
However in my head I knew what I wanted to happen. God had always given me favor and I expected that favor to continue. When I arrived I expected to find a job quickly and really without much effort on my part and then begin getting in touch with promotors who could help professionally produce past theatre production. Keep in mind that this is what my little mind secretly thought since I didn't want to write another play for awhile since there are 2 scripts left that have never been in production.
I arrive in Savannah and God's favor does meet me here. He reveals some things to me as I wrote in my last blog post but he does not provide that job. Writing begins to consume my spirit but I eagerly push it away because I need a job! But in search of that job, I find that everyone is talking about how bad the economy is and companies are freezing hiring. Okay, that's not a problem because I am not depending on man, I am depending on God! However God is not providing that job, He is giving me instructions that I do not want to follow....I don't want to write, I want to find that job!
Well, I wasn't listening to God so He used a promotor to rely a message to me, "Create a buzz about your next play", she said. "Next play," I said to myself, "What next play, God hasn't given me another play to place in production." Oh but He had placed in my spirit to write another one! HE HAD GOTTEN MY ATTENTION! Jesus! Jesus! Jesus! Though it took me a minute or five.... to unstubborn and redirect my mind, God revealed 4 plays to write. I was obedient and out birthed so far 2 plays(Fervent Truths and Pains & Mirror Mirror, Unequally Yoked) and working on a third (Brothas' & Sistas') with a fourth forthcoming (A Love Story). I love the Lord for checking my disobedience for it has inspired a deeper trust in Him.
I voiced the words, "I don't know what I'm going to be doing when I get to Georgia. All I know is that God told me that the next level of my life could not be fulfilled in Decatur, IL." So with that in my spirt I obediently and willingly stepped out on faith.
However in my head I knew what I wanted to happen. God had always given me favor and I expected that favor to continue. When I arrived I expected to find a job quickly and really without much effort on my part and then begin getting in touch with promotors who could help professionally produce past theatre production. Keep in mind that this is what my little mind secretly thought since I didn't want to write another play for awhile since there are 2 scripts left that have never been in production.
I arrive in Savannah and God's favor does meet me here. He reveals some things to me as I wrote in my last blog post but he does not provide that job. Writing begins to consume my spirit but I eagerly push it away because I need a job! But in search of that job, I find that everyone is talking about how bad the economy is and companies are freezing hiring. Okay, that's not a problem because I am not depending on man, I am depending on God! However God is not providing that job, He is giving me instructions that I do not want to follow....I don't want to write, I want to find that job!
Well, I wasn't listening to God so He used a promotor to rely a message to me, "Create a buzz about your next play", she said. "Next play," I said to myself, "What next play, God hasn't given me another play to place in production." Oh but He had placed in my spirit to write another one! HE HAD GOTTEN MY ATTENTION! Jesus! Jesus! Jesus! Though it took me a minute or five.... to unstubborn and redirect my mind, God revealed 4 plays to write. I was obedient and out birthed so far 2 plays(Fervent Truths and Pains & Mirror Mirror, Unequally Yoked) and working on a third (Brothas' & Sistas') with a fourth forthcoming (A Love Story). I love the Lord for checking my disobedience for it has inspired a deeper trust in Him.
It is a highly elevated level of faith to totally depend on God and a growing process but the journey in that dependency will prove tried and true who you serve; God or yourself. God is waiting on us to stop planning our steps for Him. Yes, I know that job is coming forth but in all my searching I will not find it until God releases it therefore while I wait...I need to be diligent in hearing His voice and directions.
God releases His Blessings on the just and unjust.... Enlighten me!
Yeah, I know all about it....God ain't nothing to play with....If you say it, you HAVE to mean it!!! Because He's gonna look for Actions to back your words...
ReplyDeleteTRUST---Totally Relying Unshakingly on Solid Truth! Whatcha think about that?
Yeah, I know...I'm struggling with that....
FAITH-Finding an Intimate Trust in the Heavenly Father
Yep-I made those up! Notice that? lol...
I'm struggling with that too...Talk about a test!
Each level requires a test to see if you are truly ready. A lot of times, we think we're ready and OOPS, that hurts! Why do I have to go thru all this? Because the next time it happens, God has already prepared you for it.
ReplyDeleteLet's make some t-shirts with those saying on them. I really like those.
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