You know sometimes, you don't/can't see for being right in the middle of things so you have to be moved so you can see. Now that God has moved me from being in the middle...I see things about myself and others but I want to focus on what I see about me that has "retarded" my destiny! My Fears are no. 1!
You may say, fear, fear of what? What is Velma afraid of? Rejection! WHAT! You might say... you see, what I didn't know/realize is that we as humans are rejected and reject all the time but we don't look at it like that. When we see, hear, taste something that we do/don't like, our response is to accept or reject it WITH OUR REACTION.
In our response, we SHOULD then try to understand why we feel that way? BUT USUALLY WE just go with the emotionally response? Come on, most often we go with the emotional response!
Okay, that's where I have been. I have allowed my emotional responses to the fear of rejection to prevent me from selling myself as a writer and business woman with a wealth of info which God has taught me. Example: My son became irritated with me the other day because he said, "I think you act just like Noah (his 6 yr. old son) sometimes, mom, you know the answer but you pretend you don't know. That's where Noah gets it from." You know he's right! I now do that a lot of times....but wait...it has not always been that way. I once pride myself in knowing, I read a lot, and could talk on various subject matters. I have had people become upset with my knowledge and discern of things/people but even when I tell that 90% of it is God, 5% RCC education, 5% me, some people appeared intimidated and stepped back, especially the people of God. My intent was just to be of help but instead of accepting it for what it was... I became less communicating and associating. Also there were things in regard to my appearance that I constantly struggled with and they are issues that can be modified. So instead of accepting those issues and working on their modification, I didn’t face them. Even with biblical issues, I was told I researched and studied too deep. As a writer, I get a high off of research and meaning of words. I need that type of stimulation! After awhile, that stimulation became not as important as it used to be for me. WHY? I became more and more surrounded by people who really had no interest in what interested me...
What has God shown me? I had REALLY been attempting to please those intimidated people and just didn't want to deal with the issues and living in that "DENIAL" was DESPERATELY SPIRITUALLY & NATURALLY DRAINING ME!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, Detective George, you may say, what does that have to do with your fear of rejection (You had to be at the last play to know what I'm talking about)?
First you need to really understand what FEAR is..."Facing Everything; Accepting Reality". Therefore until I face everything about me; the insecurities of the likes and dislikes and accept it, accept me for whom God created me to be, I'll never be able to walk completely in “Faith.” God is healing those FEARS (FACING EVERYTHING; ACCEPTING REALITY (insecurities)) and preparing me so I can do what He needs me to do. THIS IS THE YEAR OF POSSIBILITIES!!!!!!!!!!!! AND my GOD IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS DEPERATELY SPIRITUALLY & NATURALLY DRAINING YOU? CLICK ON THIS LINK AND ENLIGHTEN ME…
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